Maybe it’s just me, but life disasters always seem to come in waves. Things are going completely fine one moment and then all the sudden the world is falling apart. Then your car breaks down. Seriously, why do car troubles always happen at the worst possible time?! Not that there is a good time for car troubles… but still. 

In the past month I have had to process some of the most difficult emotions I’ve ever felt, there've been a lot of hard days. Processing emotions looks so different for every person and it can be hard to figure out what works best for you. Between varying personalities and trauma responses no two emotional breakdowns look the same. For me I tend to shut down and have to be alone for a bit, and then I need to talk through with someone I trust. I also cry very much… lots of crying. I’ve learned how to process emotions best after a lifetime of hard situations, and I’ve also learned how to find joy through it all. I won’t get into details about all the situations I’ve been put into, but it’s been a lot. There are many feelings to be processed and many solutions to be found. My work life has turned upside down so there's a lot of problems to navigate through involving my job. I'm also not staying at my own house right now because I’m dog sitting for the 3rd week in a row. I tend to stretch myself a bit too thin, but at the same time I know my limits. I know I’m strong and can navigate hard times. I’ve reached a turning point in life and at the same time I’m processing feelings about things unrelated to my personal everyday life, so there is definitely the feeling of everything happening all at once. Life always throws shit at you in waves, but calm waters tend to follow the waves. I search for joy through it all, oftentimes that is as simple as starting the day with a trip to the local coffee shop.

Lately I ask myself each day, can’t we get a break? This life of chaos we all live can’t just calm down for a moment? Nope, it won’t and that is okay. All we can do is find the best way to navigate, process, and appreciate all the joyful moments we can.